becoming that girl...

I have a big issue with commitment. The only thing that I have been committed to (besides my family) for an extended amount of time is my car. We have had 12 wonderful years together and I do hope that we continue in this amazing relationship. Cars are easy to have a relationship with; maintaining them usually only entails a 3,000 mile check in and they are contented to not be driven for days/weeks at a time. This is the type of relationship I seek: one that I can control and drive in whatever direction I decide.

I have, with much fear and trepidation, crossed over to the dating side. It is quite a shock for me to arrange my schedule with someone else in mind, to keep my house clean at all times and to make plans to go out and explore Portland several times a week. Though shocked, I am really enjoying myself and am working to keep the giddy out of my everyday conversation...

I have, much to my bff's delight, become that girl. I have become the person I make fun of who is constantly smiling, listening to love songs and is in a constant state of "awww." I want everyone to enjoy this as I have enjoyed making fun of all those around me who have been in this state. I only hope that I can maintain clarity of thought whilst enjoying this new adventure.